Personality Damages

Bullying has influenced me in so many ways- but the worst one is probably the way that it has altered my personality and by that, I mean it has taken away a lot of my confidence, made me quite shy and means that
The slightest negative thing has hurt me. It has made me stronger- but in a way which means I tolerate things and don't let the hurt show. I know everyone gets Hurt sometimes and I'm not asking for invincibility against pain but it would be nice to not always get down about the little things. Im normally happy - on the outside
At least but I just wish that I didn't always have to fake it so much. I also hate the fact that it was the bullies that made me this way- the fact that the y were able to change me in such a negative way. Now the real me only seems to come out when I'm under the influence of alcohol. Of course, there Are people that I feel I can be true too or people that make me feel like I need less barriers up with. I want to be like that with more people and for it to take less time for me to comfortable with others. Lately, I have gradually developed a ' you've got nothing to lose' attitude which is helping significantly with this problem. Please
Don't let the bullies who know little about what a beautiful person you are get you down and affect your personality. They don't deserve to know the real person but they definitely deserve the chance to make that person feel inferior and alter your personality. STOP & STAND UP for your personality which is beautiful and unique.