The Fear 2

Remember the Fear I was telling you about in a previous post? I'm happy to say that I am pushing myself as far as I can in order to conquer it. I'm not sure that It will ever go away because there it's something that is underlying and hard to get rid of no matter how I hard I try. But my fear is fading, I'm putting myself in more situations where I need to face the fear more because that is the only way that I can begin to get over it. It doesn't matter how well I know people at the place,I still get the fear. It's intimidating and while I know most people go to places with others anyway, it's not always like that for me As a lot of my friends live far away from me, it means we often meet up when we're already out which i don't mind. I usually get a cab home by myself too because I can't always sleep at friends. The thing is this can't stop me from going out so I won't let it. The thing is just being invited out is a big thing for me and if I was invited out four years ago, I wouldn't go because the fear was so big. Now I try to take every opportunity although sometimes I still fear that I won't be wanted there, yet people have asked me where I was if I didnt go and it makes me feel a lot better and boosts my confidence. So if the bullies gave you a fear, fight it and face it. Stop and stand up against your fears.